Dear Heavenly Father
This is my letter to you today. I have not spoken or reached out to you for years because I was so focused on my life I forgot to turn and give you thanks for all the days of my life.
Lord this life is not easy. There are so many things I wish I knew when I was growing up. It is hard Lord. I try my best but there are times I just want to lie down in bed and never wake up. I want a life that is just normal, but I dot really know what normal is Father. I am so lost and feel alone.
I wake up with doubts and fears and hurt but I want if possible you could send me a hug and comfort me. My children Lord are important to me and I wish I could watch them every second of the day, but in my flesh I cannot achieve this. Watch over them for me. I never wanted them to grow up in a broken home, without their father but I had to make a choice to save my life and preserve their future.
I wish you could appear to me physically and sit down with me and have a conversation. I am a single parent now and people are judgemental. I did not leave because I was immoral but when people hear I am a single mum some of their words really hurt more than their silence. I am not sure any woman dreams and aims at being a single parent but circumstances force the hands. Lord let people not judge me at anymore. If I could be an open book I would have my history tattooed over me. It is not my fault and it is not right then that I become stigmatised, judged and scorned by those still in marriage.
When someone says hurtful things now I just but smile. I will not fight my battles by myself anymore. I want you to fight for me and vindicate me. Let the truth be said and come out in the open. Free my soul.
Thank you lord for winning the battles for me and giving me a forgiving heart.
Amen
Your daughter who needs a hug from you
